It's The Little Things

It's the little things in life that should make us happy right?  When did we become so grand gesture hungry.

How come we have to win the 120 million in the lottery why can't we just be satisfied with the 7 mill.
Why do we need a 9 bedroom house why can't we just be satisfied with a 2 bedroom fixer upper.
Why do we need the hottest guy (bad boy) on the block, why can't we just be content with the man who loves us unconditionally.

We need to start appreciating the little things again.  Like the fact that we woke up this morning.  Your car started.  it could always be worse.  How many times you have made it through what ever storm there was.

I am reminded that life is too short to be angry and tense about the things that I can't control, the saying is true when life gives you lemons you make lemonade.  I realized, that there have been times I didn't know how I was going to pay my rent, or how I was going to get this and do that.  But it worked out, and I was lax in my great fullness.

I  understand that all GOD wants from us is to be grateful. Live decent lives and look to him alone for our peace.

So thank you, for the little things, the small gestures, the safe passage, the breath of life, the healing, the friends, the family, the love unconditional, the non judgement, the making a way out of no way, the understanding, for what you are about to do, and what you have already done.

Guess the little things are GRAND after all!

I Almost Wish I Was Flat Chested!

Again, I ask my self the question why would anyone opt to have surgery, cosmetic anyway.  Okay some surgeries can't be passed by, and some are life saving. But you are never 100% your self again...

Tiny aches and pains... things not fully functioning correctly.  People take a chance every time they go under the knife.. especially for cosmetic stuff in the hopes that it will turn out right and they will look flawless,  if it doesn't well forget trying to correct it... because there is no chance of that!  

Just like a car after it's new. Once maintenance is done,  there always seems to be some other problem...or it could just be human error who knows. Just because you have something done... doesn't mean you will come out good as new...in fact hardly ever... my Doctor said and I quote " After surgery things are not quite they same are they"...

Ha I guess not...and yet people still take chances anyway, on a gamble for perfection... I guess what I am trying to say is... unless you absolutely need it... and or it's a life saving surgery... don't take the risk... cause you are never 100% and you are never, ever as good as new!

Just asked my fused muscle that's attached to my (fake) boobie that when ever I touch it, my muscle contracts in to a ball and squeezes the shit out of it. The doctors also can't tell me why it's happening.  Damn implant!

Hind site is 20/20 and if I knew then what I know now, I would have made some vastly different decisions.  I haven't had a F this ish moment in a while, I guess today is just one of those days.  

Thanks for listening.

BITING THE BULLET (ONLINE DATING)

Okay so I'm doing it, a while ago I wrote a blog about online dating and how I didn't think it wasn't necessary and blah blah blah.  However, I see the light.  Not about the online dating but trusting God will bring you who your supposed to be with ,but you have to do the work.  Those are seeds I haven't really sewn, I haven't actively or non actively looked for a companion, but I do think its necessary to stir up the pot.  You know have some man scent on you as it were.  I joined a free site, that someone recommended and I have to say, it's working, I mean there are people messaging me and wanting to meet for coffee, mostly conversations, but it's working, I can not deny that.  

I have yet to meet with someone or go on a date, I mean I am still pretty new to the site, but it is the place to meet men my age or older, it's true, I'm not gonna meet my guy in a club. I  don't go and neither do they, most are family men, divorced or babies daddies and yes they would look crazy as hell in the club.  You know those guys, that you immediately judge cause they in the club trying to hang with the youngins.  I am starting to feel that way myself (the old lady in the club).  Not that I club like that anymore, but it's definitely  for the kids these days LOL. 

It's hard to meet people in your friend circle, because most of your friends have been your friends for years, and there really is no new people, or they are all married or you know waaaay to much of their business already.

So here I am giving it a shot, if I go on any dates I will keep you posted,  I'm curious to see what will happen next.  How fun for me ;)

CALL ME OLD FASHIONED

You know it's deep when you have to tell someone who want's to "date you", your old school and would prefer a phone call rather than a text.

There is something to be said about a phone conversation, you get to hear the intent behind the message, the sense of humor, the tone behind the joke. The truth behind the voice.  Instead of getting offended or confused because of lack of punctuation, or your not familiar with the persons sense of humor yet.   Your able to form a connection that your not able to with text.  We are such a now generation that even when we are in front of each other we are communicating via the inter-web.

The new hottness is we have been texting all day today makes me sad.

Even when meeting for coffee, the phones are on the tables, not in purses or pockets for the ready, to be distracted from what's important, that connection.  I can't believe that a request for a real conversation could be a deal breaker.  If you can spend time typing, you can spend time talking.  Not every phone call is 5 hours long, but that was the lick.  You look up and look at the time, and you have been talking all night.  That is connection.

We gotta stop, we gotta take a step back, and remember the days where a written letter was better than poor writing or ebonic text to get points across.  Just because its text Okay is spelled O.K.A.Y or O. K. not occay.  Ugh!  Sorry for the rant, but geez I just want to be able to really feel and know that you are a living breathing human being and that talking to me is a really good part of your day.  

Now let's be clear, everything doesn't have to be a phone conversation a quick, I'm on my way, or can you talk text is totally appropriate that way you know when one is available to actually speak, but come on people where is the the humanity. The love and respect.  Or how about when your talking to me you can't concentrate because you are looking at your phone and texting someone while we are talking.

Think of it this way, what were you doing before there was facebook, texting, and all this other nonsense.  If the phone rang and you weren't home they would have to call back.  I'm not saying we have to go back to the proverbial stone age, but what I am saying is what's the harm in picking up a phone and wanting, yearning to hear the voice of the person you are so enamored with.