Waiting For Epic!

Trust me when I say, I will not settle, it's not that I'm picky...I just won't settle for less than EPIC love!  Now I'm sure you are probably thinking that's a very high standard, but my version of EPIC probably differs from yours.

I'm looking for my match, the one who compliments me, who can check me when I'm wrong, and lovingly tell/ give advice on what to do next, I am looking for a best friend, a confidant, the first person I wanna call when something great/or bad happens, one I can cry and laugh with, one who is willing to put up with all things me and I him.

To me that's EPIC love...I can't help but think about Stevie Wonders song as...and how much he loved the person he was singing to...this part in particular stands out to me:

Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky--Loving you 

Until the ocean covers every mountain high--Loving you 

Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea--Loving you 

Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream--Be loving you 

Until the day is night and night becomes the day--Loving you 

Until the trees and seas up, up and fly away--Loving you 

Until the day that 8x8x8x8 is 4--Loving you 

Until the day that is the day that are no more--Loving you 

Until the day the earth starts turning right to left--Be loving you 

Until the earth just for the sun denies itself--Loving you 

Until dear Mother Nature says her work is through--Loving you 

Until the day that you are me and I am you-- 

Now ain't that loving you 

Now that seems ridiculous doesn't it, but that's what love makes you feel like...that all the preposterous things are possible...that you two are the only things besides God that exist.

I have to say, because of not settling and knowing when something is just not gonna work cause he and I are not on the same page, or  he comes with so much baggage it's hard to see what's under neath because he has hid that part from everyone...I am not trying to heal someone, I am not your mother, I am not your father and I am not your savior, I didn't do it, it's not your fault and I am not her!

I am your lover, your confidant, your cheerleader, your best friend, your biggest support, I am your equal, your match, your ride or die!  You will be mine...EPIC, I know your out there, and I pray to GOD that he prepares me to recognize you when you come...I am a bit out of practice on being someones girlfriend, but  if your him... I will let ya know that, and you can help me along as I will help you.

EPIC and I are partners, and share everything and we enjoy our friends while enjoying each other's company.  Right now you are a vision and your nick name is EPIC, but I look forward to the day when I can call you by your true name...the one your momma gave you :).  Can't wait to meet you, and if I already know you, can't wait to see how our love evolves!

How Can You Move Forward, If You Live In The Past!

I don't pretend to have the answers to everything, and I hope you all don't think I am trying to sound holier than though.  Cause please believe I am just learning all these things myself.  A wise person once told if you are living in your past how can you enjoy your future.

Even the bible says the future is sufficient for it's self, how can you be in the present, if your you constantly go back to your past.  Past love, past hurt, past fall out.  One of the fundamental things everyone one needs is forgiveness...you can't fully move forward if you can not forgive your past.  

This is not a new statement,  it is a true statement...and sometimes we need to be reminded over and over again before it finally sticks.  Let him go, let her go, if it was meant to be it would have been.   You can't fit a circle into a square and you can't make someone love and you can't CHANGE anyone.

Life is sooo short, and long at the same time...see one day you'll look up and it will be too late, you will realize that you have spent most of your days harping on or dealing with junk and stuff from your past, life has passed you on by.  You don't want that...you don't want to live like that do you?

Life is a series of test and checks and balances...if you can't learn from your mistakes you are doomed to repeat them...if you can't change your thinking you will continue to get what you get.  You don't have to live this way.  I think fear plays a big part in the decisions we make.  We are afraid if we step out and fail, then you knew that was going to happen you will never try again.  The whole point of walking in your fear is to challenge your self, and if you do fail you learn from your mistakes so you don't make the same one's again.

Ladies, that man is the same man just in different skin.  He is exactly that guy you used to see but with a different face.  The problem with that is the guy who is going to bless you isn't anything like that guy,  but you can't see it cause you are dealing with past man.  Fella's she's not her, she didn't do it...please stop using that first girl that hurt you to ruin other women,  you men can be very harsh, and play with our emotions like a harp, cause She did that to you.  We can't apologize for her, we can only do what we can do.

I'm not trying to sound preachy, and honestly I am probably preaching to the choir, and I need to hear all of this as well.  We have to allow ourselves to be completely happy, single or otherwise...your happiness is not based off someone else, and too half's don't make a whole,  two wholes make a movement.  Nothing is going to be perfect, but you don't have to be stressed out, or full of drama either.  Trust, God did not envision that for you.  You shouldn't envision it for yourself.