Maybe it's you!

Ok, have you ever heard someone complain sooo much about everything, that you start to wonder, what in their life has gone right.?

I mean dang do you just have the worst timing, the worst luck, or is it you?

Have you ever heard somone say, god I can't keep a man/woman, or their relationships/friendships always seem to bite them in the ass later on.

At what point do you ask the question, maybe it's me!

One of the tuffest things to do is look inside and see your flaws.  It's easier to blame everyone else because it lets you off the hook.  However your luck is the same, and will continue to be until you exam YOUR SELF!

Your problems stem from past problems, which begets new problems, which in turn manifest themselves in your relationships, and if you haven't taken stock and said hmmm what the hell is going on with me.  What ever you try and do will never work out.

How can you be good to anyone else, when you are no good to YOUR SELF.

Come on people stop playing the blame game, and look inside, God knows you  need to get your shit together, but most importantly So Do You!

Doin Me!

People always say love will come when you least expect it... and others say you have to put it out there that you are looking...well I am about to do both.

Here I am saying...putting it into the world...letting you and God know...that I am looking for love.. a mate... a companion... a best friend... some one to love unconditionally and whole heartedlly.  There... that's done!

Now I am going to focus on me... doin me... being the best me I can be...loving my self... and taking care of myself... so that way when love comes I will be ready...for the man I just asked for above... see I think both theories are right... you have to be open to the fact that love is needed... but to harp and focus is futile and sometimes you are so anxious for someone that you will settle for anything.

However, when you do you... and focus on living a great life and being in love with self...well you don't have time to harp so the time that passes doesn't seem like much time and when you look up there he is...holding out his hand saying... I'm ready for you to love me and ready to love you too.

So right about now I'm a just do me!

Mrs. Steal Yo Man

So admittedly... I have consciously and sub-consciously done this action... I was listening to the Trey Song's song... and he calls himself Mr. Steal your girl!

When I say I have consciously done this I mean in my teens and parts of college...but to me... a man having a girlfriend was no big deal and men make mistakes all the time... clearly you were not happy where you were cause if so you wouldn't be with me... and yadi yadi boo boo!

See the problem is when I see what I want I go after it... and it's not often that someone catches my eye on a personal level... so when they do... I have to know them... talk to them... see them... I WANT them... that's a dangerous place to be...but who's getting hurt... in high school and college I felt we are far to young for those types of serious relationships... and I know what your thinking who am I to say so...but if he didn't feel the same he wouldn't have been with me either.

But...it may be biting me in my ass my friends...I sometimes have been approached by married men known to me not known to me... and of course the one's not known to me well...they tricked me and feelings were involved and other circumstances so you make a mistake.

Then you understand you DON'T deserve to be second to any one... and you start feeling bad for the woman on the other end...and I realized even what I was doing in college and high school still caused the same painful affect... and now I may be paying for those decision's I made so long ago... I do subscribe to cause and effect... and for every action there is an opposite and equal reaction.

I would never want to cause anyone pain...nor would I want someone to cause me that same pain...I wish it could be as simple as everyone was just honest and no one cheated... I don't think this post is going to save the world...but I do know there won't be no more man stealing over here!

No Resolutions Just Goals!

Happy New Year everyone... I know I usually do my post on Monday's but I was a little busy getting the New Year started at the job!

I realize that resolutions are futile...so I made a few goals... and I will share...my goal this year...is to live the best life I can... have the most fun with the most people... and love everything about myself...including the fact I don't have breast...(okay I have implants so technically, you see my point) see the thing that used to make me afraid of intimacy has now empowered me... it has been a slow process...but now... I feel like... I'm through the worst and now I just have to be me... own it...love it... and when the person I love see's my courage and conviction...it won't be a big deal to them either.

I know what your thinking...it's all in my head... but remember there are a lot of frogs that may need to be kissed before EPIC comes along...soo... I have to be just as brave... my goal... is to love like I have never been hurt... and dance like no one is watching... and make sure everyone in my life is as happy as possible... the goal... the glass is half full...the bright side...the this weaping may endure for a night but joy come's in the morning type stuff.

Not besides that I am 6 Years cancer free on January 28th God is sooo goood...look at me thriving and stuff!  Seems like only yesterday I was celebrating 5 Years.  Hold please....just took a lil moment to dance in my chair... if you only knew where my mind was 5 years ago...to be able to talk to you all is such a blessing... but I digress!

So if your with it... I would love for you to accompany me on this journey... I feel like there are going to be some pretty interesting things going on this year... and sooo much to tell ;) so stick with me kids... we are going to have a blast... Hello 2011 Let's Do This!